Headache

Ohh, I have such a headache.
Feels like I'm dying.
But I won't take any aspirin.
It's not good for me.
Or maybe I should?

No, that's the bad part speaking.
Anyhow, I got a high fever, is it noticeable?
I think it went higher after speaking to my friend.
No offense, but she has boyfriend issues and I feel so helpless.
Especially when I'm sick.

I haven't been able to do anything around here.
My grandma is staying here until Friday.
I think it's great, but I wish I wasn't sick when she's here.
I don't want to make her sick too.

I feel better than yesterday, but I'm still not good.
I think I'll stay home tomorrow too.
God, I wish I at least could read a book or pay attention to the TV, but my thoughts is elsewhere.
There's only one person I want to talk to and he's not here.

Maybe it's my fever talking, but I feel better when I talk to him.
Not always though, I understand like 50% of everything he says, but that's okay.

I want to finish my book; Daddy Long Legs, but I can't.
Not now when I'm sick.
I'm behind in the Goodreads reading challenge.
I want to write good reviews again.
It feels like I'm only following a pattern instead of making a good review that makes the book the way I think of it.

I'm thinking too much.
I promised myself that I wouldn't.
Please, make me better soon. :(

Sick

Damn, I got a cold from either my sick friend or I took the wrong bottle filled with water.
I prefer to think that it's my friend who made me sick.
I won't write much, but I just wanted you to know that I'm alive.

Finally

I got some sleep last night and it felt so good.
Now I'm just wondering why I'm up?

There's no one online on msn.
I'm too tired to watch something.
I'm also too tired to read.
I got to get up by 9.30 in the morning.
Last thing; I have absolutely nothing to do.

What's the point of being up?
Maybe it's my brain that is thinking too much.
It happened something, and I'm pretty sure I'm right about it.
But I really don't know how I feel about it.
So so confused.

Anyhow, my grandma is coming this Friday!
I haven't seen her since my grandpa passed away, and it's been a while.
Well, I've met her after the funeral, but it's still long ago.

My parents are having a HUGE party on Saturday.
In their point of view since it's only 35 people who's coming.
I think it might be fun.
Even though the flyer sucked.
Worse flyer ever, I would have done a so much better flyer.
And the boring words my dad used.
No wonder that many of the invited didn't want to come.

I hope it's sunny on Saturday, I want to wear my beautiful dress.
I promise to put in some pictures from the party.
And I might be on some of the pictures.
If I turn out good looking.
I usually look bad in pictures, or it's just me, I don't know.
I'm not comfortable on being on any.

Maybe I should sleep.
Damn, my mind is working 24/7.

15 hours

I've been sleeping for 15 hours and I'm not joking.
Is it even normal?
And still I'm tired.
I must be sick or something.

So I didn't go buy the books today.
Maybe it's destiny's way to say it's a bad idea.
Besides, I can always buy it from Amazon and have the books in English.
It's probably a better idea.

Ouran High School Host Club

I've been watching episode 4 of the Japanese drama series Ouran High School Host Club today.
I usually watch the episodes right after they come out on the internet so I can download it (Don't judge me, I'm buying them as well when I can afford it, I already own 26 movies/dramas and there's more on the way here.)
but I've been stalling this drama for some reason.

It's not perfect or a masterpiece but it's good.
Only thing is that it barely happen anything so it gets kind of boring sometimes.
Soon the fifth episode will be available on the internet.
Like in a few hours or so.

Unfortunately I get confused if I don't have subtitle.
Usually it's no problem, but with this drama it is.
So I have to wait for subtitles that usually comes two days after it is available on the internet.
And that's really fast.
I admire the ones who actually makes the subtitles.

I tried make some myself.
My parents didn't want to see Pretty Little Liars if they didn't have Swedish subtitle.
It ended with a question mark on my forehead and I gave up doing it all by myself and took one in English and translated the words only.
In a proper sentence of course.

I'm currently editing episode 3 on Pretty Little Liars.
The first two were already translated, thank god.
But it's really boring.

Time is running away

I think it's kind of scary when I fall asleep without knowing it.
And when I later wake up and many hours has gone away.

It's already Sunday.
I've been sleeping through Saturday.
Feels like I haven't been awake at all, and the whole day has passed by.

I have some things to do today.
But I'm pretty sure I'm going to do only one thing except sleeping.
There's two books I want that I'm about to buy from a private seller who is completely ripping me off.

The books costs 65 SEK/each, and I get two books for 150 SEK?
Not cool at all.
But I really want those books.
It's the Titanic series by Diane Hoh.
Unfortunately it's in Swedish, but I've wanted those books ever since I was a little kid.

That's the only thing I'm going to do today.
Then of course I'm going to shower and get some more sleep.
I will need it.

Yay!

It's finally Saturday.
Early in the morning.
I finally got some sleep and I don't have to think about staying up all day for school.
Now I can finally sleep whenever I want.
Feels nice and relaxing.

I fell asleep right before dinner time, about one or two hours before, and I didn't wake up until a few minutes after midnight.
I'm going to have some problems next week though.
I start 11:15am and won't come home until 5:30pm.
So I really have to sleep in the night then.
Or else I will totally collapse.

Anyhow, I've been watching Death Game Park so I'm going to write a review soon.
But I can say that the end was surprising and a little bit weird.
A wtf moment as I usually say.

I started writing a review on The Hunger Games, but I just bought the books in their original language and not Swedish, so I will read all of them in English before I write a complete review.
Besides, I've already forgotten most parts in the first book so I can't write a review anyway.

Ni Hao!

It's hi in Chinese.

I just saw it on Nick Jr.

Don't judge me, it's the only thing on TV that's not boring at the moment.

It's the first time I hear someone mention something in Chinese there.

Gotta love it.

They're talking in Chinese all the time, I actually learn some things here.

If I get kids someday, I'm going to make them watch this show.

If it's still airing then.

Hopefully it does.

Thank God It's Friday!

I'm so tired, I stayed up all night... again.
I'm just happy that it's Friday today, and that I can go home early today.
I only have three subjects that I have to attend to today.

Probably I'm home around 1:00-1:30 PM.
I will eat and then sleep.
Then I don't have to think about staying up all night, because it's Saturday then.

I recently found out about a website called Veoh.
It had one of the Japanese "mobile"-series collected to one movie.
Death Game Park is the name of the series.
And it's pretty much like The Hunger Games.

My friend in Korea told me about a Japanese movie called Battle Royale.
It's exactly like The Hunger Games, only that The Hunger Games is in the future and Battle Royale is in the present I think.
That movie was released in 2000 and it's actually based on a novel.
So now I'm craving for that book.
There's also a manga, but I really prefer a novel instead of reading a manga.

Anyhow, Death Game Park is also based on the novel Battle Royale I think.
I'm not really sure about that, but it's pretty much the same plot.

I'm going to watch Death Game Park as soon as possible.
With that I mean when I don't feel tired.
And probably in the night.
Even though it doesn't seem like a sad movie at first look, I believe that it will be sad since it's classmates that have to kill each other to survive.
They know each other well, and that's really sad.
Not to mention that every death is sad, even though it's not caused by others.

I will see Battle Royale as soon as possible too!
And hopefully I get money so I can buy the book too.
I think I'm going to read it before I watch the original movie though.
Can't wait to see Death Game Park though, I've already watched a minute of it and it's kind of exciting already.

Now I have to get ready for school.
Eat something, get dressed, you name it.

Konbanwa!

It feels like I'm using Japanese too much, hope it's okay.
This means good evening.

I been sleeping since I came home from school.
And I did find the book my friend wanted.

I just woke up so my mind isn't clear just yet, but soon.
When I get some pancakes, I mean.
Well, I ate a pizza I made before I went to bed.
But I'm still hungry.
Very hungry...

Ohayou!

...or good morning as you say in English.
I've stayed up all night... again.
I hope this won't happen so much like the last semester.
It ended with that I almost passed out in school and had to go home.

Maybe I'm just stupid for being up, but it's the only time that I can be alone.
My parents are always at home, well... my dad at least since he is a senior.
My mom and I have to take the same train in the morning, so I have like five minutes for myself.
I really need more than that.

Today I'm going to buy a book for my friend Nathie called  Jag saknar dig, jag saknar dig! in a second hand store close to my school.
It's also a Swedish movie who haven't been released yet, well... I don't think so.
I've read the book myself, but I got to admit that I was bored by it.
Here is the movie on IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1606619/
"Jag saknar dig" is Swedish for "I miss you".

I don't get how I can stay up all night two days in a row.
I'm kind of weird.
I watched the latest episode on Pretty Little Liars and that made me even more tired.
Should watch an Asian drama instead next time, a sad one.
That would make me wide awake... and sad.

I really need much luck to survive the day.
Maybe I should eat something before I go to school.
Or else I'm doomed.

My mom will wake up in thirty minutes so I will have some lonely time by myself a bit longer.
I will come home early today, thank god.
I only have two lessons today; History and Swedish, and that's easy.
We probably don't have to do so much since it's the first day of studying, but it can happen.
I sure hope that we do something that will keep me awake anyhow.

When I come home I will go to my bed and sleep until it's dinner.
I will also check my mailbox, it might come a few surprises for me.
It already has come a few, and I know it will be more because I was the one who ordered the things.

I love that I also got a 87 SEK voucher on CDWOW only because I ordered a lot of things.
I'm going to save it though, until they have some kind of sale again.
Hopefully it's soon, because that voucher will disappear in a month.

No Network Connection

Sadly I have been without Internet for 2 days now, but I got it back today!

Anyway, I came back to school today after the long summer break we had.
It was awesome to take it easy this summer, and it feels kind of weird being back in school.
It feels like I didn't have a break at all.

I have new courses this year;

• History A
• Swedish B
• Text Communication A
• Photographic Image A
• PE A
• Italian A
• Psychology A

The red ones are a maybe, 'cause I didn't see my name on any list.
But I have to be on a list, but it might not be those courses.

Not many courses this year, thank god for that.

I'm so tired so I'm writing some more later. :)

Tired

Gosh, I'm so tired.
Yet I won't sleep.
Maybe I should.

I've been watching True blood the whole night.
I'm going to start see episode four of the fourth season, but I don't know if I should.
My mom is about to wake up, and yeah...

I really should sleep, and I can't concentrate anyway because my cat is whiny at the moment.
And he wants to play, but I really don't want it now when I'm so tired.

Anyhow... I can't wait to watch the new TV show The Lying Game.
I've bought the books online, so I'm just waiting for them to arrive.
I hope it will be soon.
I hate watching something without reading the book before.

Except Pretty Little Liars, best show ever!
I can't wait for the next episode to air.
It might even be better than Asian dramas, and I'm obsessed so it's really good.

Only because I wrote some weird stuff that I even don't know about.
I'm not high nor will be ever, but I'm too tired to think about what I'm writing.
It's a miracle that I can write in English at the moment.

I love Eric in True Blood by the way.
But to come to the subject I was talking about before;
Here comes a picture of my weird and cute little cat Gustav:

My cute cat Gustav

Want to read

I really want to read something, I just don't know what.
I've already read the first book in The Hunger Games, but since I don't own the other two it was kind of pointless and I will forget that book, just like everything else.
I should have owned them all before I started reading.

Maybe it's better if I read them all in English instead of Swedish.
Hopefully my mom might be interested in the book I've got in Swedish.
She doesn't know much English, so she only read books in Swedish.

I just saw that I ended every sentence in the past paragraph with the word "Swedish", someone might think that I'm just thinking about my country.
Or maybe it's just me.

Oh yeah!
Before I went to bed last night/this morning, I thought about an idea for my book idea.
I think I need to explain what I'm talking about from the beginning.

One year ago I had a dream, I'm not telling what it was about, maybe later.
And I've always wanted to write a novel from that dream, but I never knew ho I was going to start.
I knew how the ending would be, but not the beginning.
But last night I knew how it would start.
I had to write it down so I wouldn't forget it.

Someday I will write the novel, and maybe I will publish it on the blog.
If I can't make it published as a novel of course.
But that's just daydreaming I guess.
Nothing is impossible though, it might happen.
But my expectations isn't high at all.

Ugh

I'm not feeling so well at the moment.
The whole day has involved nausea, stomachache, hotness.. the fever kind of hotness, not anything else.
I hope that I will feel better before school starts.
I don't want to miss the first day.

That's why I haven't written anything today.
Or well.. yesterday as well.
I've been taking it easy and now I'm currently watching True Blood.
The third season is better than the first and second.
Even though I really liked Godric in the second season.
It's too bad that he died.

The Hunger Games

I didn't watch True Blood when my parents went to bed, I read The Hunger Games in Swedish instead.
All I can say is that the book was amazing.
It felt so real even though it's fiction all of it.
I finally got used to the tiny text, and that made it all worth it.
It became one of my favorites, the only bad part was that I'm craving for the sequel now, and I really can't afford it.
I have to read it on the computer, but I guess it's better than nothing.

The book left me with a headache, hunger and thirst.
Maybe because I read it for about 6 hours or so.

The funny part though, is that I usually read small paperbacks in a week, only because I'm not used to the binding, but this book changed it all.
I'm really glad I read it.
I will write a review of it later here, so I won't spoil too much of what's about to come.

True Blood

I really want to watch it right now, but I can't since it's too many sex scenes in it.

I like the plot very much, but I don't want my parents to think I'm watching porn.

It's too bad really, but I have to wait until they fall asleep.

That's also the reason why I can't watch Asian drama when they are awake.

Well.. not exacly the reason, but about them being awake I mean.

I really can't cry in front of others, it makes me feel weak and uncomfortable.

And many of the Asian dramas make me cry, only because it's very sad and touching sometimes.

For an example I watched Heavenly forest and thought it would be a cute drama/romance movie, but I was so wrong.

Well... it did contain that, but it was also some sad parts that I just had to cry on.

So you never know if it will be sad parts even though it's supposed to be a comedy or such.

It will come up when you least expect it.

But there isn't so many sex scenes in season three of True Blood so far, but you could never be 100% sure.

And my parents have the ability to come in in the worst parts..

Not in True Blood though, I learned my lesson before that.

The Hunger Games

I'm currently reading The Hunger Games in Swedish.
It's pretty good so far, but the text is so small, I'm really not used to it.
And the text also seems old, like it's from the 19th century or something.
But now I'm really tired, so I don't know how much I can read.
I've stayed up all night, and now it's really early in the morning.
I really have to start sleeping when it's night, if I continue like this I will have so much problems on wednesday when my school is starting.

I think I'm going to stop reading when I come to chapter four.
If I can.. it's starting to be really good actually, and I actually think that it will keep up. :)

Germany

I would like to share my thoughts of my recent trip to Germany.

It's been over a month since I was there, but I still think of it.
Maybe because it was my first trip overseas without my parents, and alone with one of my best friends and her boyfriend.

The whole reason we took the train for 14 hours or so, only because we wanted to see X Japan live.
It was really too bad that they didn't come to Sweden, but at least we got to travel to another country to see them.

It was totally worth it, and somehow I think that it was because they have a special place in our hearts that we traveled to Germany to see them.
The whole action is special.
And I wouldn't do it for another band in the whole world, only X Japan.

Here's the view from our hotel room.

It wasn't much of a view, really..
But the hotel was nice, even though I don't have so many good memories of it.
First of all I was hallucinating so my friend thought I was nuts.
I was too tired from the train trip that I just wanted to sleep, thanks to that I started to hallucinate a spider on the wall .

Maybe I should tell that I was kind of sleeping then too.
And I got off of bed like spider man and tell my friend that there was a spider on the wall.
She tells me that there ain't no spider there so I'm going to bed again.
Five minutes later I see it again och jumps up from the bed the same way as before and say: "It's back!!"
Then I really can't remember more of it.
I wouldn't have remembered it if my friend hadn't reminded me when I woke up for real.

The next unpleasant memory I had was that I had the sofa bed and I wasn't prepared that it could break...
Well.. so I like jump butt first down to the bed and it breaks.. for real.
I was shocked for about one minute or so, and then my friends start laughing.
It was awful, haha.

I took this picture when we went for a walk.

It wasn't like this in real life.

It might seem beautiful on the picture but we was in a ghetto for sure.

We took the wrong way and didn't find out the nice places until the day that we were going home.

But at least I felt at home, I didn't think that we were in Germany, it always felt like Sweden but with weird-looking signs.

(Check the picture below)

Weird-looking signs.

Here's my friend Tove

Here's her boyfriend, behind the camera.

Here's my friend Tove and me outside the concert.

We really had a lot of fun together, but the best part was the concert, the most beautiful I've ever seen in my whole life.

It's just too bad that the food was horrible.

Burger King was the greatest but the lady who took my order scared me to death.

Our conversation:

Me: "Hi, I would like to have a burger please" *Big smile*

She: "Which one?"

Me: "Ehum... the original one, please"

She: " NUMBER ONE, NUMBER TWO, NUMBER THREE, NUMBER FOUR, NUMBER FIVE, NUMBER SIX?" like reeeeaaaally loud.

Me: " o____o I just want the original one, I don't want anything extra on it"

She: "Okay" *getting my burger*

People stared at us and I felt well.. scared.

It ended with that I didn't even got ketchup with my fries.

I guess she just had a bad day, but I still was scared, haha.

Waiting to come in and have the best time ever.

I thought I was in heaven when I was there.

It was actually the first concert that real tears fell from my eyes.

When I sa Green Day live, I forced my tears to come out so I could say goodbye to my grandfather who passed away earlier that year.

But it wasn't real.

X Japan made real tears come out from my eyes, and I loved it and I'm greatful.

I usually don't cry in public, but they made that possible.

X Japan LIVE!

I didn't get good pictures of them at all, but that's okay really.

I videotaped some of it as well, only to keep it as a memory for myself.

And I thank Apple for having iPods that makes them sound like the real thing.

I wont share them with you though, it's only for me.

My bad memory is greatful for having them with me live all the time. <3

We are X!

Shopaholic

When it comes to Asian dramas, you can say that I'm obsessed.
Today I bought 15 movies on CDWOW, and they all were Asian movies.
I'm going to show you later, so I can show the world how obsessed I really am. ;)

A-Z Reading Challenge 2011

I found the challenge >here<

Here is my list:


Anastasia's Secret by Susanne Dunlap
Bitten & Smitten by Michelle Rowen
Cassies Dubbelgångare by Gisela Tobien Sherman
Daddy Long Legs by Jean Webster
Eve by Anna Carey
Fallen by Lauren Kate
Get Real by Francine Pascal
Hungerspelen by Suzanne Collins
I'm So Outta Here by Francine Pascal
Jekel loves Hyde by Beth Fantaskey
Kill Me Kiss Me Volume 1 by Lee Young You
Luna by Julie Anne Peters
Matched by Ally Condie
Numbers by Rachel Ward
Oh. My. Gods. by Tera Lynn Childs
Persistence of Memory by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes
Queen of Babble by Meg Cabot
Reincarnation by Suzanne Weyn
Switch by Carol Snow
Torment by Lauren Kate
Unearthly by Cynthia Hand
Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead
Wild Orchid: A Retelling of "The Ballad of Mulan" by Cameron Dokey
XVI by Julia Karr
You Are Not Here by Samantha Schutz
Zombie Queen of Newbury high by Amanda Ashby